“KNOW MY LOVE”
[In a time of discovering unhealed wounds]
In the times I’ve been found neck-deep in insecurity recently, heavily questioning why I’ve been given such pure love in my closest relationships and feeling so undeserving and confused, You have been answering in this way — Faithfully revealing to me the heavy moments of my childhood and past that have utterly convinced me I am unworthy of love… and now calling me to revisit those moments with You; All with the purpose of redeeming me from the deeply rooted lies and deception that took hold of my heart in those times.
I open my heart up to You today. Thank You that in any challenge or confrontation in this life, still Your yoke is easy and Your burden is light. You give me joy in my pains, and You supply hope in my hardships. With You, healing and redemption are not just made possible, but made Your promise to me. Lord, I pray for such clarity and sobriety to pursue and walk in this promise every day. I ask for Your gentle correction and continual unfolding/revelation in Your timing. May I be strengthened in Your presence every day, to welcome these things as they come… And to embrace my weakness, for I know Your power is perfected in this place. Thank You for people I can walk with who fight for me, who are jealous for the victory of the cross, and who challenge me to be still before You. You know my every need. I trust You.
“I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened, so that you will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of the strength of His might.” Ephesians 1:18-19
“that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.” Ephesians 3:16-19
Your words for me last night were “receive” and “know My love”, and I really feel like that is exactly the position I find myself in as I read these verses. I receive these prayers, and I ask that You’d continue to do this work in me. Strengthen my inner man, that there would be even greater room for You to dwell within me. Increase my understanding and outpouring of love. I want to know Your love more and more each day; Not that it would just continue to dismantle my misunderstandings of what I thought love was (according to the brokenness of man), but that it would make me confident to receive what I now know eternal and unconditional love to be (according to the power of Christ)… and that it would cause me to display only that kind of love in every relationship or person that I pursue here on this earth. Root and ground me in Your love, O Lord — Its breadth, length, height, and depth — and would that be my satisfaction and fullness in You.
You really know every single one of my weaknesses and shortcomings, and You know every way I become vulnerable to pain, frustration, anger, and impatience. So Father, when those times come, I pray that You would go before me and greatly guard my heart from the enemy’s schemes that want those things to grow into forms of hurt and destruction against others and myself. In the toughest seasons of life, may I never act out in strife, violence, or anger… But would I always be led to bring it before You first and foremost. You were so clear in Scripture today that Your glory going forth and the power found in Your saints are all according to the supply of Your limitless strength. May I taste and see such things. May the eternity of knowing you cut off all the broken and sinful parts of me that are prone to react in my insecurities and fears… especially the feelings of being unseen or misunderstood. In the ways I’ve been hurt and wounded from others operating out of that place, I pray You’d cover me to break such patterns of sin in the generations to come. Hide me in Your truth and in Your love.